So what is Sidious up to into in Lord of Grief? Does he try to dig for information from Ani?
There are times when he doesn’t always understand.
Anakin
will willingly admit that his emotional range can be a bit…
insular.
As in
he’s more consumed in his own emotions.
However,
he’s not stupid and as he stands beside Obi-Wan, the two watching
the troopers ready the supplies for the Negotiator and the Resolute,
he can’t help but wonder if this is how Padme, Obi-Wan and Ahsoka
has felt at time.
Because
he’s not oblivious to Obi-Wan’s changes.
All
that grief and pain inside of Obi-Wan, dragging him into the dark,
fallen and yet not Sith and yet Anakin knows… at just one word from
him, Obi-Wan will let worlds burn.
It’s
a heavy burden to bear and Anakin can’t help the goosebumps that
appears on his skin, the single focus of Obi-Wan’s care, devotion
and love a bit overwhelming after so long of convincing himself it
does not exist.
But it
does.
He
only needs a glance at Obi-Wan’s face, at golden eyes flashing, to
know it’s true.
Because
his ‘death’ hit Obi-Wan hard enough to drag Obi-Wan, Obi-Wan the
pinnacle of Jedi and light, to the dark side.
‘Or
is it gray? He’s fallen yes, his emotions aren’t… steady but
he’s not really dark. And he’s not like any darksider I’ve seen
before, he doesn’t hurt people just because.’ Anakin smiled at
Obi-Wan when the man glanced at him.
He got
a smile in return. “I can keep observing Anakin, you do not have to
stay with me?” He murmured. When he got a confused look, Obi-Wan
clarified. “I know the Chancellor invited you to drop by before we
left.”
Rubbing
the back of his neck with his leather covered hand, Anakin let out a
low noise of discontent. “I guess but it didn’t sound urgent and
I don’t really like the Rotunda if I’m honest,” He wrinkled his
nose. “Hive of scum most of them…” He grumbled in annoyance.
A warm
hand wrapped around his elbow and Anakin turned his head back to the
other, blinking.
Obi-Wan
just smiled softly at him. “Not everyone in the Rotunda is a
Senator,” Anakin grimaced. “But most are a politician yes, and
most of them are scum.” He agreed quietly.
Anakin
blinked, staring at the other, a bit gobsmacked before he
chuckled quietly.
He
never expected Obi-Wan to admit that.
Oh, he
was aware that while Obi-Wan could play the politician game, he also
detested it, as their bond often highlighted when Obi-Wan let his
emotions spill through to Anakin.
“That
said Anakin,” Obi-Wan paused, clearly floundering a bit before
tightening his grip on Anakin’s elbow. “Please promise me you’ll
hear me out and not be offended?” He peered up at Anakin with
inquiring, borderline pleading gaze.
More
bemused than anything, Anakin shifted to face Obi-Wan, nodding slowly
as he did.
The
other didn’t say anything at first, glancing down, clearly mulling
over his own words before sighing deeply and looking back up at him.
“Palpatine makes me uncomfortable, very uncomfortable. And I am
worried about the influence he has on you, influence you may not have
noticed but I have.” He stated softly.
Anakin’s
knee jerk reaction kicked in, the blond opening his mouth to deny and
defend only to close his mouth again as quickly, remembering that he
had in a round about way promised to remain calm. “…Continue.”
He stated, tone clipped.
Guilt
rose when Obi-Wan flinched a bit, his eyes shifting in color as the
Force shifted around them almost lazily in response. And worse was
the hesitation that came after the tone. “Its just… when you
return from him, you tend to be… testy, in response to constructive
criticism or just in general upset when people don’t… respond to
you as you think they should.” Obi-Wan’s tone was overly
cautious.
Anakin
had turned the already hurting and grieving man cautious.
The
man that could uncap a well of pain and grief that reduced the
strongest to tears.
Sighing,
leaving his arm in Obi-Wan’s grip, Anakin licked his lips. “I…
guess. I’m not sure what you’re implying though.” He settled
on, wishing he had Padme’s ability to understand or Obi-Wan’s,
negotiation and looking into words for meaning wasn’t his strong
suit.
He
preferred bluntness.
Obi-Wan
watched him, still with that cautious look in his eyes and on his
face, clearly readable to Anakin. And then he let out a deep,
fortifying breath through his nose. “He seems to stroke your ego a
lot Anakin, and I don’t like the effect he has on your temper or
your mood. Being prideful over your skills is one thing, becoming
arrogant and angry is more worrying, especially when he seems to make
you think you can do no wrong.” Obi-Wan finally stated, his words
slow and a bit uncertain.
Clearly
he expected Anakin to lash out, but Anakin was more thoughtful than
anything.
With
the war, he knew what arrogance could do to someone, it lead to
people being killed, to thoughtlessness and compromised intel.
To
funeral.
Feeling
Obi-Wan tighten his grip, almost possessively, on his elbow, Anakin
shot him a brief smile before patting his hand.
But he
didn’t say anything, the smile was enough to make Obi-Wan settle,
both straightening up as Cody and Rex came towards them.
It was
time for duty once more.