So, imagine this. There’s no war, Palpatine had a heart attack or something, the clone production either never happens or is cut off. Padme and Anakin hits a rough place and Padme throws Anakin out, which leaves both Anakin getting drunk and wasted with a besotted Obi-Wan. One night stand. Padme takes Anakin back though but there’s a hitch, Obi-Wan is pregnant. What happens?
He could still
hear the others voice in his ears.
She’s taking me
back Obi-Wan!
She’s taking me
back!
I didn’t fuck up
that badly!
Obi-Wan’s hands
tightened on the wheel of the speeder, staring at it numbly as he
remembered the utter delight on the others face, Anakin’s blue eyes
wide and his lips curled up in the widest smile he could ever
remember Anakin sporting.
So his words had
dried to ashes in his mouth and he had given Anakin the best smile he
could, given him his due comfort though his smile would at best have
been insincere.
In his delight
Anakin had not noticed.
And that left
Obi-Wan in the speeder now with the rain pouring down on the outside
of it, his hands on the wheel of it with the gnawing knowledge of
what was growing inside of him. Obi-Wan gave a low keen in the back
of his throat, head falling forward to rest against the speeder
wheel, his mind racing before he finally took a decision.
Turning the
speeder, he heated back to the temple and left the speeder in the
hanger, intent on finding Mace.
The Korun took one
look at him and sighed before stepping back and letting Obi-Wan into
his quarters.
“I need a favor
Mace, a mission…as many months as you can give me, far away.”
Obi-Wan offered without pause, staring at the taller man.
Mace gave him a
long look. “This has to do with Skywalker, doesn’t it.” It was
not posed as a question and Obi-Wan’s shoulders slumped, wondering
if he was that transparent.
“…Senator
Amidala has changed her mind. The council will be glad to know that
they’ve resolved the issue between them and she has taken him
back.” He whispered, struggling against his own emotions.
“…And that
spark growing inside you?” Mace finally posed the question to what
Obi-Wan had been planning to tell Anakin about.
“…Is mine.”
The redhead settled on. “Please…somewhere far away…as many
months as you can get me.” He whispered.
Mace sighed deeply
and then reached out, taking the other by the shoulder and pulling
him in, tucking Obi-Wan’s head beneath his chin. Obi-Wan’s
initial response was to tense up before he sunk against the other
with a quiet noise.
“…Five months,
a posting on the Outer Rims. Nothing fancy, just watch the ships,
keep an eye on pirate activity and radio it in. Uiron.”
“…I’ll take
it.”
Mace arranged it
and Obi-Wan leaves the next day, a bag slung over his shoulder as he
boards the shuttle that will take him to the cargo transport that
will bring him to the Outer Rims. There is no goodbye.
The thought of
saying goodbye is too much and so he leaves mails to everyone that
matters. The ones that matters to Obi-Wan in this hour. Force is
there really just a handful that would care if he was missing or
dead?
Obi-Wan swallowed,
an odd sensation of loss and being unwanted in his belly settled in
the small quarters, on his way outbound.
()()()
Its not so bad,
even being so far from the temple and most of civilization.
He can breath out
here on Uiron, he lives in a small hut with all the surveillance
equipment he would need both to send messages into the Core and
monitor the ships passing by Uiron. The hut he lives in is small and
beyond the necessities, he actually has the luxuries of a rather
large and soft bed.
Obi-Wan actually
spent the first two hours just laying in it the, feeling the softness
before he started putting away his things and cleaning out the dust
that had settled.
The hut had a
small fresher, a standard sized bedroom and a combined kitchenette
and livingroom and the surveillance/communication room. Three rooms
to live in, one to work in.
It gets…well not
better but easier.
There is less here
to remind him of what he’s running from and Obi-Wan stocks the
minor fridge of the hut and cupboards with what he needs from the
closest town, taking note of the merchants. Few are permanent
residents but he gets to know a few of them, local farmers, merchants
and even a few mercenary who calls Uiron their home.
There is a moment
though.
Perhaps call it
weakness.
He’s buying
supplies for the month and…there’s a blond, obviously a mercenary
and Obi-Wan can feel the others eyes on him.
Tall, a bit lanky
but built for his profession.
For a moment he
contemplates…
And then his mind
cries out. ‘Wrong, wrong, wrong! Green eyes, no curls! No scar!
Wrong!’
He bows his head
and avoids the mans eyes.
Eventually though
the real reason he’s there becomes impossible to ignore because his
stomach swells, his limbs ache and nausea sets in. One impossible
moment has him breaking down in tears because he swears he can smell
Anakin, the scent of skin and preferred soap and…
It gets easier,
eventually.
Obi-Wan put his
focus on the babe growing inside him, slumbering beneath his heart.
Heart ache grows fainter as the swell becomes more pronounced and his
visits to the medic tells him its healthy. A butterfly flutter inside him.
He ignores the
steadily growing inbox of mails from the people he knows, responds
only to the council and sends his updates in.
And then its time
for him to leave.
The months feel
like they have passed in a blur, as if he’s been sleep walking and
only awake for the moments when his baby kicks around and Obi-Wan
speaks to him as the flutters continue.
His robe hides
what he doesn’t want to show for now as he disembarks the shuttle
in the hanger, ankles aching and back sore, mind buzzing with
tiredness from the transport.
“Obi-Wan!”
The man is swept
of his feet, a yelp of shock leaving his throat as arms wrap around
him tightly and that damn familiar scent as his face is smooshed to
dark cloth as his bag hits the floor of the hanger when he drops it
in his surprise.
“You’re back!
Finally!” Anakin’s practically vibrating in excitement before
freezing a bit and settling Obi-Wan on his feet, pulling back slowly
to peer down at the other, shock lacing the Force around him as his
eyes settled on Obi-Wan’s swollen stomach.
Obi-Wan cleared
his throat but had no words.
He hadn’t
expected to see the other so soon.
‘Force…what
now?’