Major stars- How does Obi-Wan handle hearing that Anakin knows? Is anyone else going to figure it out? Anakin isn’t really the best at keeping secrets…
His son knew him.
That was a… novel thought.
Even more novel was the sensation of having his son in his lap, his good arm wrapped around Anakin as the kid quietly read his homework. Occasionally, he’d stop and ask for Obi-Wan’s help for either words he didn’t understand or concepts that went a bit above his head.
The task of ones master really.
Yet, by the fond, soft look Qui-Gon was sporting as he watched the two interact as the man himself was tending to his plants, Qui-Gon didn’t mind that Anakin had gone to Obi-Wan for the help.
It was enough to make Obi-Wan smile shyly back at the man, watching Qui-Gon carefully clip his Kashyyyk climbing flowering vine into a manageable lengths, to prevent it from spreading out of its pot.
On the floor, Qui-Gon’s bright pink watering can, the flower nutrients pellets and a bin for the plant waste was stationed, in easy reach for the tall man to use on his hobby.
It was domestic and Obi-Wan couldn’t say he didn’t like it.
When Qui-Gon had told him, Obi-Wan hadn’t been sure what to feel.
A tad panicked, the sensation of fear and hope building so fast it made Obi-Wan dizzy.
The fact that Anakin had known for so long and yet not said anything did put some of Obi-Wan’s fear to the side though, the worry that someone would learn that Anakin knew and would inform the council, that Anakin would be reassigned by the council of reassignment.
Their son himself had put the other worries to rest.
Obi-Wan had worried Anakin would think they had abandoned him, had thought the boy might resent them a tad.
He hadn’t.
He still curled into Obi-Wan with eagerness, pressing his nose to Obi-Wan’s tunic, hugging him as tightly as he dared with Obi-Wan injured from his mission. No, Anakin loved them with all his heart.
Still, some fears remained.
He wanted Anakin to become a good knight, well, as long as that was what Anakin wanted. If their son wanted to join one of the corps or even leave, then Obi-Wan would support him. But those options were easier, Anakin had the skills to become quite the pilot, mechanic or any number of things.
But to become a Jedi knight, a certain… demeanor was required.
Obi-Wan worried the wouldn’t be able to teach Anakin that, that the love they had for their boy would lead to attachment.
Would lead to Anakin developing his own attachment.
Jedi were to love, to be compassionate… but love and attachment were different things.
To love with all their heart and yet to be able to let go, grieve but don’t let death or loss destroy you or your rage control you due to said love.
There were the healthy kind of love and the unhealthy kind and overwhelming emotions were not good for a Jedi. It could lead to a darker path, to the dark side whispering in your ear.
It could lead you to taking the wrong choice.
‘But we have to do our best, don’t we? We love our boy… and… and I don’t know if I’m strong enough now to walk away. I don’t think I’m strong enough to let him go either…’ Obi-Wan mulled over that.
He was worried, Obi-Wan didn’t want his love to turn selfish and problematic.
The only thing he wanted was for Anakin to become the best person he could be, to be happy with who he was, regardless what path he chose.
Pressing a soft kiss to the crown of Anakin’s head, he smiled a tad shakily as their boy made a happy noise and burrowed into Obi-Wan, ignoring Qui-Gon’s now slightly worried glance at him.
All Obi-Wan could do, was to be as good as possible, to make the decisions that seemed right and believe in the Force.
That was all he could do.