I’m wondering if in Kybertears, if the black crystal was meant to fully absorb Obi-Wan, trapping him inside a prison of his own blood in order to harness his powers for an even bigger plot. After all, Palps didn’t seem to worry about Obi dying on him and seemed to have further plans involving him.

The crystal was a being of agony and suffering, screaming in torment even as Anakin and the council tried to purify it, pressing forward in the dark miasma that surrounded the screaming being as their souls glowed ever brighter as they worked, Anakin able to spot the council members joining around the council with their own power, their souls visibly bright and beautiful, flinching as the sound struck them as much as it struck Anakin.

Worst of all was that its scream sounded like Obi-Wan, like the screams Anakin had only heard in the worst kind of torture, the sounds Obi-Wan would have been so far gone that he couldn’t keep them in anymore.

Anakin had only ever heard these screams once and he never wanted to repeat it and yet here he was, listening to the crystal screaming with Obi-Wan’s voice.

It made sense, it was created by Obi-Wan’s very blood after all, the blood of what might be the last star child in the galaxy but it was horrible to listen to his own master’s voice, screaming with pain and knowing that at some point, Obi-Wan might have screamed just like that in pain.

This crystal…

Anakin wasn’t sure what Palpatine was planning with it, it didn’t make sense honestly, why would he want his source of kyber to die?

Was the crystal a mistake perhaps?

Did he think that he could keep Obi-Wan alive somehow or…

‘An experiment. This crystal is an experiment, since Obi-Wan’s tears can’t be bleed like other crystals, he had to try another way but instead he created this.’ The realization hit Anakin heavily and if he had physically been in his own body and not currently trying to overflow the screaming crystal with light, he might have vomited.

As it was, he still retched in the tangible world only for one of the healers to support him, keep him from wrenching himself out of the spiritual realm of the Force.

Keep him going as he poured as much of his own power into the crystal with the council guiding way with their light in the spirit world.

Anakin knew he had flaws, he wasn’t fully light, nor was he fully dark, he was somewhere in between, struggling for balance and maybe…

Maybe that was why when the council members faltered and fell away, Anakin still persevered forward with Mace Windu, Depa Billaba and Plo Koon at his back.

As the creator of the vapaad, Mace was experienced with the dark, his constitution was high.

As for Depa?

Well, it might not be her chosen form but she was still experienced with the vapaad as the former padawan of Mace after all.

She had spent her adolescent working with her master and his form, feeling the darkness against her very being as Mace used the enemy’s own darkness against them, skirting the edges of it himself with his saber technique.

And Plo?

Well, you didn’t get to his age without being well experienced and unlike Yoda, Plo still had enough youth to and constitution to keep on going where Yoda’s age made him bow away in exhaustion.

The screams had died down to whimpers.

Tiny… soft… yet heart wrenching, painful little sounds that had Anakin wishing he could pull away.

‘Almost… like a child…’ Shifting slightly, Anakin brow furrowed as he hesitantly pushed forward and reached out to the ever smaller cloud of darkness, their effort clearly having an impact.

The moment his hand touched the cloud, it evaporated, leaving behind not something wholly light but not wholly dark either as it sobbed softly with a child’s voice.

‘Obi-Wan’s voice. Its… its really just a child isn’t it?’ Anakin wrapped his hand around the little crystal, holding it wrapped in his own light protectively as it seemed to seek him out in turn, the sobs easing down to little hiccups as the crystal seemed to nuzzle at Anakin’s light, seemingly seeking out comfort. ‘Just made, just a child… a part of a star child made physical… did… did Palpatine draw star material out of Obi-Wan’s blood?’ Anakin couldn’t help but feel dizzy even in the spiritual plain, blinking open his eyes to stare down at his hand.

Did Palpatine even know what in Sithhells he was doing at all?

Anakin didn’t think so as he stared into his own hand.

Resting on his palm, a small, tear shaped white crystal rested, glowing faintly.

Just like Obi-Wan’s eyes and freckles would do when he wasn’t trying to hide himself.

The thought had Anakin close his hand protectively around the crystal before his head snapped around, breath held as he meet Obi-Wan’s open, glazed, almost feverish but glowing eyes, the sheen faint but there along with his star patterned freckles.

“…Hello there…” Obi-Wan rasped out, face pale as death and yet visibly regaining strength, smiling dazedly at his former padawan and fellow council members.

Beautifully, wonderfully alive as his tired eyes flickered from person to person before focusing back on Anakin.

Anakin could have sung in joy, instead his breath hitched painfully in his lungs before he fell forward on the bedside he was sitting on, wrapping Obi-Wan’s tired, weak body in a hug.

So terribly weak, hurt but alive, his hands slowly coming up around Anakin in turn.

He smelled of rancid sweat and blood, the spongebath having done little to really clean him when he was brought in and yet Anakin couldn’t find an iota of care as he rocked the other slowly and pressed his nose to the greasy hair.

“You’re alive.” He sobbed quietly, laughing shakily when Obi-Wan tried a weak, comforting shushing.

He felt more than he saw Windu step closer and rest his hand on Obi-Wan’s shoulder. “It is good to see you Obi-Wan…” The man murmured quietly, Obi-Wan letting out a soft hum in response.

“Mmmn… tired.” The redhead whispered, nuzzling his head into Anakin’s shoulder.

“Then sleep Obi-Wan,” Anakin stroked the others hair, unable to let go of the other. “We’ll guard your sleep.” He promised, feeling the other settle into Anakin’s body.

So
I just wanna say…

People
do remember that I’m dyslectic and that English is a second
language for me? That I’m from Norway and I haven’t grown up
learning English, grammar, spelling and all those jazz rules, though
to be fair, it doesn’t seem to help always when you are born in an
English speaking country.

Not
only that, but that I do this blog as a hobby for free?

That
all the content I do is really just something I try to do for fun?

That
I do actually have a life outside of the blog that needs attention
and that I also have chronic pain and exhaustion and only got so many
spoons to go for a day?

I
know that it can be annoying to read the grammar stuff that’s wrong
but at this point, I’m kinda overwhelmed, especially since my hand
is also hurting .

So
what I mean is, please have some patience for me?

I’m
TRYING, I swear I am.

But
I am a hobby writer and when people basically spam me to correct my
grammar without considering one, the dyslectic thing and two, not
from an English country and three, I do this for free,
it does kinda pull the teeth of joy and my energy spoons out of my
grasp when people pile on me to correct stuff I do for free,
especially if the people in question can’t be bothered to be polite
about it either and just bullrush me to point out all my grammar
mistakes.

Just…
please have some consideration for the fact that I do actually have a
life outside of the blog and that I do have a learning disability,
making me feel stupid isn’t going to get people content, not
if you’re jumping down my throat
to
make a point.

I
already feel stupid enough most days without that tacked on.

Thank
you for your attention.

So cut me off and delete this if you don’t want to answer but I know you identify as a lady quite obviously but do you have any non-binary? I mean, are you totally secure in identifying as a woman?

Typically I’d
tell someone its none of your business because that’s my private
affairs but considering my fic ‘day to day’ with intersex Obi and
that occasionally will write transgender if the prompt is good and I
think I can do it without offending… I will answer.

I think so?

But at the same
time I can’t really say for surety. I mean I don’t have any
issues with pronouns like her, she and so on but I don’t generally…
make too many thoughts about it. I mean, I wear dresses or pants, I
wear male button ups and so on and forth and use makeup and let the
hairs on my legs grow. I’ve generally done male oriented work
around the house like put down the floorboarding, heavy garden work,
sawing. Those traditional ‘male’ labors. But I can also do the
traditional ‘female’ stuff like cooking, washing, nurturing and
so on. But with that said I don’t really think about gender all
that much except when I’m annoyed with things like underboob sweat
or period pains.

And I’ve always
been a ‘tomboy’ compared to other girls and my hair style is
generally in the shorter layers as in, most of my hair is now no more
than an inch with longer on the top.

I don’t… really
generally think about gender or if I’m binary or anything like that
and Norway is generally in the not caring route of if I’m male or
female. Generally that is, we can be a bit fucked up too, note.

But talking in that
route I have to say I had no idea that I was asexual until almost
three decades. I thought I liked boys and girls friendly, then I
discovered I was bisexual and then… well I understood I am in the
ace spectrum.

I don’t really
think about it much.

I just exist and as
long as people let me exist I’m content as long as I’m happy and
the ones around me kind of understand and accept me. They don’t
have to understand fully, just as long as they accept me and
understand that I’m not gonna change and become someone else.

So… I guess
that’s all I really have to say about gender in regards to myself.

I just am, I enjoy
the things I do, I like learning and I like cooking and I like
fishing and gaming and… just yeah. That’s all.

So cut me off and delete this if you don’t want to answer but I know you identify as a lady quite obviously but do you have any non-binary? I mean, are you totally secure in identifying as a woman?

Typically I’d
tell someone its none of your business because that’s my private
affairs but considering my fic ‘day to day’ with intersex Obi and
that occasionally will write transgender if the prompt is good and I
think I can do it without offending… I will answer.

I think so?

But at the same
time I can’t really say for surety. I mean I don’t have any
issues with pronouns like her, she and so on but I don’t generally…
make too many thoughts about it. I mean, I wear dresses or pants, I
wear male button ups and so on and forth and use makeup and let the
hairs on my legs grow. I’ve generally done male oriented work
around the house like put down the floorboarding, heavy garden work,
sawing. Those traditional ‘male’ labors. But I can also do the
traditional ‘female’ stuff like cooking, washing, nurturing and
so on. But with that said I don’t really think about gender all
that much except when I’m annoyed with things like underboob sweat
or period pains.

And I’ve always
been a ‘tomboy’ compared to other girls and my hair style is
generally in the shorter layers as in, most of my hair is now no more
than an inch with longer on the top.

I don’t… really
generally think about gender or if I’m binary or anything like that
and Norway is generally in the not caring route of if I’m male or
female. Generally that is, we can be a bit fucked up too, note.

But talking in that
route I have to say I had no idea that I was asexual until almost
three decades. I thought I liked boys and girls friendly, then I
discovered I was bisexual and then… well I understood I am in the
ace spectrum.

I don’t really
think about it much.

I just exist and as
long as people let me exist I’m content as long as I’m happy and
the ones around me kind of understand and accept me. They don’t
have to understand fully, just as long as they accept me and
understand that I’m not gonna change and become someone else.

So… I guess
that’s all I really have to say about gender in regards to myself.

I just am, I enjoy
the things I do, I like learning and I like cooking and I like
fishing and gaming and… just yeah. That’s all.

Sooo…. QuiGon and OldBen with a lot of height difference aka Ben tugging on QuiGons hair when he wants a kiss bc he cant reach on his own without doing horrible things to his back (not that QuiGons back is too happy about all this leaning down)

“…Ben…”

“Shh…this is strange.” Ben continued wiggling the robotic toes.
They had no sensation and Ben couldn’t quite understand why he was
given robotic toes.

“Ben, they’re for your balance. Ben please let me put socks on
you before Maul and Obi-Wan arrives.” Qui-Gon smiled a bit at his
bondmate, sitting on the end of the others bed.

“Oh, fine…wait they’re coming?” The other looked at him,
blinking.

“Yes. I told you so five times.” Qui-Gon explained patiently
while pulling the socks on the others bared feet.

“You…You did?” Ben looked uncertain, scrunching his face in
thought.

“Love, you remember the sith ripped through your shields?” Ben
shiver was enough answer. “Yes, that’s making your memory harder
to control, your short term memory is…shoddier then it was.”
Qui-Gon squeezed the ankle then slid up to wrap the other in his
arms. “But we’ll fix that as good as we can.”

“…What if it can’t be?” Ben questioned quietly.

“Then I’ll be here to look after you Ben. So will Quinlan and
Maul.” He stroked the others hair, marveling at the copper strands.
The best explanation Healer Che could figure out was that Ben’s
refuge near the Force sensitive crystals had in a manner turned the
clock backwards on the mans body.

Or perhaps a form for Forced blessed miracle.

Regardless, his Ben now looked the age he was naturally. Not that it
mattered to Qui-Gon, he could enjoy the sight of course but he’d
rather his Ben was as mentally sound as he could be then have the
physical clock turned back.

He stroked the others hair slowly and steadily, listening to Ben hum
against his shoulder and collarbone.

“…Kissing would be easier now.” Ben suddenly piped up.

“Hmm?” Qui-Gon blinked.

“Its easier to stand on my toes now. Instead of always pulling you
down.” Ben tilted his head to smile at him, nuzzling in closer.

“I guess so my dear.” The other chuckled softly, stroking the
others cheek. “I didn’t mind to much though.” Ben hummed then
tugged the other into a small kiss, smiling against Qui-Gon’s lips
as he melted against the other.

They pulled away when the doors opened though and Ben gave a sweet
smile to the two padawans standing there.

Maul moved quickly to his master’s side and wrapped the other in a
hug.

“Ma-ouf! Padawan, I’m fine.”

“You’re lying.” Maul muttered and settled his head on the other
mans shoulder. “But that’s fine. You’re back. You’re here.
You CAN be fine.” He nuzzled into the others shoulder and Ben
petted soothingly between the Zabrak’s horns.”

“Hmm…yes…I was thinking, could we have honey meat for dinner
today?” Ben tilted his head to look at Qui-Gon, face open and
curious.

“We can if the healers clear it with your current diet after your
capture. If they let you come back to our quarters that is.” Ben
blinked at him in confusion and Qui-Gon just smiled, taking his hand.
“We’ll see Ben. We’ll see.”

Sooo…. QuiGon and OldBen with a lot of height difference aka Ben tugging on QuiGons hair when he wants a kiss bc he cant reach on his own without doing horrible things to his back (not that QuiGons back is too happy about all this leaning down)

“…Ben…”

“Shh…this is strange.” Ben continued wiggling the robotic toes.
They had no sensation and Ben couldn’t quite understand why he was
given robotic toes.

“Ben, they’re for your balance. Ben please let me put socks on
you before Maul and Obi-Wan arrives.” Qui-Gon smiled a bit at his
bondmate, sitting on the end of the others bed.

“Oh, fine…wait they’re coming?” The other looked at him,
blinking.

“Yes. I told you so five times.” Qui-Gon explained patiently
while pulling the socks on the others bared feet.

“You…You did?” Ben looked uncertain, scrunching his face in
thought.

“Love, you remember the sith ripped through your shields?” Ben
shiver was enough answer. “Yes, that’s making your memory harder
to control, your short term memory is…shoddier then it was.”
Qui-Gon squeezed the ankle then slid up to wrap the other in his
arms. “But we’ll fix that as good as we can.”

“…What if it can’t be?” Ben questioned quietly.

“Then I’ll be here to look after you Ben. So will Quinlan and
Maul.” He stroked the others hair, marveling at the copper strands.
The best explanation Healer Che could figure out was that Ben’s
refuge near the Force sensitive crystals had in a manner turned the
clock backwards on the mans body.

Or perhaps a form for Forced blessed miracle.

Regardless, his Ben now looked the age he was naturally. Not that it
mattered to Qui-Gon, he could enjoy the sight of course but he’d
rather his Ben was as mentally sound as he could be then have the
physical clock turned back.

He stroked the others hair slowly and steadily, listening to Ben hum
against his shoulder and collarbone.

“…Kissing would be easier now.” Ben suddenly piped up.

“Hmm?” Qui-Gon blinked.

“Its easier to stand on my toes now. Instead of always pulling you
down.” Ben tilted his head to smile at him, nuzzling in closer.

“I guess so my dear.” The other chuckled softly, stroking the
others cheek. “I didn’t mind to much though.” Ben hummed then
tugged the other into a small kiss, smiling against Qui-Gon’s lips
as he melted against the other.

They pulled away when the doors opened though and Ben gave a sweet
smile to the two padawans standing there.

Maul moved quickly to his master’s side and wrapped the other in a
hug.

“Ma-ouf! Padawan, I’m fine.”

“You’re lying.” Maul muttered and settled his head on the other
mans shoulder. “But that’s fine. You’re back. You’re here.
You CAN be fine.” He nuzzled into the others shoulder and Ben
petted soothingly between the Zabrak’s horns.”

“Hmm…yes…I was thinking, could we have honey meat for dinner
today?” Ben tilted his head to look at Qui-Gon, face open and
curious.

“We can if the healers clear it with your current diet after your
capture. If they let you come back to our quarters that is.” Ben
blinked at him in confusion and Qui-Gon just smiled, taking his hand.
“We’ll see Ben. We’ll see.”