I hope you’ve had a fabulous weekend. It’s been really warm here. 90s F. But the evening’s have been wonderful. While I was sitting out, watching my dog roll around in the grass, it made me think of that one ask forever ago. OlddogNewpup? I went to read through it again and it just made me smile to see the Clones try so hard with Kanan yet give him his space. And at the same time, give Ezra some love. If the muse hits ya right, maybe some more moments between Kanan and the group of Clones?
Gathering
his boy into his chest, Kanan let out a breath so harsh it made his
chest hurt as he slowly rocked back and forth, flinching a bit when a
blanket was dropped around his shoulders.
But
he didn’t stop rocking Ezra and holding around his padawan.
His
boy.
Ezra,
who was still groggy and blue lipped, wet to the bone and freezing
from falling into the frozen lake the Empire had built their research
station on that the Alliance high ups had wanted information from.
It
had been going great to begin with, the
infiltration going without a hitch,
even if Kanan had been forced to work with the karking
clones again.
Rex
was tolerable even if Kanan didn’t trust them further than he could
throw them without the Force, but they were tolerable people at
least compared to some of the sleemos that were in the Alliance.
And
then Ezra had taken a tumble into the frozen lake after being hit
with a stun blast, the thin sheet of water cracking easily beneath
even his thin, bird like frame that they were so desperately trying
to fatten.
Kanan
hadn’t consciously thought about it, it went too quick for him to
use the Force to pull Ezra out and instead he had dived right in
after his stunned padawan.
Submergence
had knocked the breath from his lungs with
the abrupt coldness closing in around him
but Kanan had the Force as his alley and used it, his lightsaber on
his belt as he worked on auto pilot, swimming after the orange spot
in the otherwise so dark, shockingly cold lake.
He
could faintly spot red and white lights in the water around him, knew
the others were still fighting.
But
Ezra was unconscious in the water, floating downwards, his tanned
skin looking corpse pale somehow, his limbs floating limply around
him in the water where he was weightless with his hair floating
around his head like a black and blue halo.
He
couldn’t get himself out and Kanan couldn’t… he wouldn’t
leave him behind.
He
got his hand on Ezra’s sleeve and pulled the Lothal native to his
chest, turning his attention back to the surface where he could still
spot red, swimming as fast as he could with one arm around Ezra’s
chest, going as fast as he could.
His
lungs were burning but finally he broke the surface, gasping as he
dragged Ezra with him to the shore and threw the boy out first.
Blurry
eyed as he was, he could spot people in white falling around them in
a half fan to keep them shielded.
‘Clones.’
His numb mind supplied as Kanan pulled himself out of the water with
numb, frozen hands to kneel at his padawan’s side.
Ezra
however, laying on the thin snow that covered the ground like a
blanket that was rapidly melting around him thanks to the water, was
not moving and that was the important thing. Ezra was not
moving and that was terrifying.
Ezra’s
chapped lips were blue and slightly parted and his eyes were closed
with his skin so white and dark hair stuck in his face.
Numb
hands tilted Ezra’s head back, fingers pinching his nose shut as
Kanan leaned down and started CPR, begging the Force not to let Ezra
join Master Depa just yet. ‘I know you wanna meet him but not yet
master, not yet.’
Kanan
wasn’t sure how long he tried to breath life into Ezra, wasn’t
sure how many breaths he blew into the boys mouth or how many times
he compressed his chest, it felt like forever, he could feel a rib or
two break under his touch and he could feel his own desperation grow
even as the blaster fire grew silent.
And
then Ezra jerked, gasping, rolling to his side as he spat out water
and a confused mumble of, ‘Kanan?’ was the most beautiful sound
Kanan had heard in years as he gathered the boy to him and held on.
And
that left them here, Kanan sitting with Ezra, a blanket wrapped
around his sopping form as Rex continued to bark orders at his fellow
clones, Kanan watching with drained eyes as the man took charge.
Another
clone with red and
white streaked hair
was at the Jedi’s side, was carefully checking on Ezra first while
also tugging the blanket around Kanan’s form, murmuring
reassurances and information as he went through medical care.
‘A
medic.’ Kanan’s numb mind supplied as Ezra blinked dazedly and
let the trooper touch him and care for him without
fuss,
Kanan to tired to protest and too desperate for Ezra to be alright
to even care that it was clones treating them.
He
could freak out about it later, when Ezra was warm and dressed in dry
clothes.
He
could freak out when Ezra’s lips weren’t blue, his
ribs weren’t cracked from Kanan getting water out of his lungs
and he was asleep in his bunk on the Ghost.
‘Or
maybe my bunk… just so I can keep an eye on him…’ Kanan noted
to himself before resting his cheek on Ezra’s wet hair, a
shuddering breath escaping the rebel.
He
could have lost Ezra today.
Either
to the lake or to the Empire’s soldiers afterward and while the
former he had himself to thank for saving Ezra… the latter he had
the clones to thank for.
‘Later…
right now… just rest a bit until Hera comes for pickup.’ Kanan
told himself, closing his eyes for just a little while, savoring Ezra
breathing and alive in his arms.
Still
his young and
alive
padawan.